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The Joke is on You

You know you’re somehow expanding when you find yourself having expensive breakfast alone (at least you can buy a few mins of solitude now to break down before your usual work day kicks in), in a cafe that plays old songs (to give the illusion that this is all classy, and you’re just like the classy actresses in these old Hollywood films), laughing at yourself for not knowing what the fuck you’re doing. You’ve reached a level of maturity enough to soothe delude soothe yourself that this must mean something…these are just growing pains. These are all gonna make sense later.


You realize that the biggest joke ever is thinking you’ve figured it all out.

Until life hits you with one water ball after the other. Defenseless and soaking wet, all you can do is laugh at the mess that you are. You realize that the Universe doesn’t run out of surprises pranks especially once you’ve settled into what you think is a comfortable (albeit numbing) pace. You’re forced out of your own damn mind.

You’re forced to open up so the Universe can fill you in with new energy again.

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Life path · People & Relationships · The Self

Scene 1, Set A: A whole fucking mess

You feel caught up because you’re trying to fucking fix it. Let it unfold.

If the cup you’re carrying spills over, let it so. Instead of getting all worked up – stiff – controlling the environment. Why should you be the one to carry all this on your shoulders? Your chest wants to explode. 

If it’s too burdensome let the cup go. Let it fumble beyond your reach. 

Stare at the fucking mess. 

Let it seep through the cushion. 

Let it stain. 

Allow it to grab you by the neck and shock you all

into paying full attention.

This circus is not working.

Life path · People & Relationships · The Self

What no longer fits

…will inevitably fall away (if you let it) because forcing to keep things together will only cause pain.

Our best intentions lead us to make an ending that is deliberate and fair to everyone. However, we see the same situation in different ways and we usually want to move forward in different directions.

When all is said and done, sometimes the only resolution that makes sense is to part ways.

Faith · Life path · Life's Work · Spirituality · The Self

Agents of Tenderness

stressLife can get tough, but the Universe doesn’t leave us alone in our journey. The Universe understands that while we need to go through our own path to learn what we set out to learn and accomplish, we also need not forget who we really are.

In my life, I’ve always had those beings who remind of me of my natural tenderness – humans, animals, nature,. Tthey hold my hand, smile at me, persistently ask me to play and have fun, to sit and relax, to listen to my heart. Many times, I’ve learned to build up a shell around my heart as a way of protecting myself, and many times when the need for it subsides, these beings always do their work of breaking it up either piece-by-piece or  in one blow.

It took a while for me to connect the dots and see the meaning in these relationships, and the presence of these beings in my life. Many times I’ve thought how undeserving I was of their love. But maybe, my human mind just can’t fathom the unconditionality of pure love. And maybe we are also part of this pure love even though it’s difficult to feel that way in our human form with all our complexities and struggles.

Nevertheless I am thankful beyond words can express. The Universe has always been unfailing in sending me all the help and love that I need.

Life path · Life's Work · The Self

Why Others’ Autonomy is Dependent on Ours

dancingWe can’t assist others in finding their own strength if we never let go of their hand, if we never give them the chance to take the risk to fall down and get back up – do it all again until they figure it out.

We’re not helping others in cultivating trust in life and in themselves if we never leave them alone in their path; if we always string them along ours or if we keep on making decisions for them.

We can’t teach others how to be autonomous in their own life by not being autonomous in ours first.

Most of the time, the best that we can do to help those in need of assistance is to actually get so focused on our own path that we’ve got no time to enable others in their small-mindedness. Let life be our teacher; let our higher self be our champion.

Faith · Life path · Life's Work · The Self

You have nothing to lose

freshYou are gonna die someday.

In the face of death I bet you won’t give a damn about the superficial stuff. I bet what’s gonna grab your attention by the neck is how you can maximize all the time that’s left. I bet you’d scramble stretching what little chance you still have to engage with the things that matter the most to you.

I bet you’d drop your pretenses, finally, and open yourself wide to reveal the fullness of who you are. You are light.

So what if you get rejected – for speaking up, for standing up for what you believe in, for going after your dreams? So what if you make mistakes as you figure things out – isn’t it the point of living, to learn and grow? So what if people mock you for seizing the moments you’re given to step into your own greatness and unleash life’s abundance through you – who’s loss is that?

All these things that preoccupy you are merely distractions. Don’t let them dim your light. All this clinging on the status quo and being a slave of fear will not take you where you wanna be.

Step into the open. Leap into the night. Confront your own light.

Release your courage by confronting the truth – you have nothing to lose.

Life path · Manifestation · The Self

The Question is: Do you really want it?

blackhairAs I drifted to my waking state this morning, a vision flashed into my mind. I was shown, like a film on a huge screen, two of my most cherished desires from the moment of conception up to their fruition. I was asked, too, why there seemed to be a space in between and in hindsight, its possible significance.

I was dumbstrucked, my mind was sucked in a vaccuum and went completely blank. I never thought about that question. I never even bothered checking that angle.

At first I thought probably it’s because I still had to become the kind of person who deserved those things before I could have them. But that felt incomplete to me. It just didn’t fit. It sounded conditional and shallow.

Then I realized, those desires wouldn’t have materialized in the first place if it’s not because of what I did – if not because of my full engagement and devotion to them. If not because of  the chances I took, the risks I embraced and the work I’ve invested onto them.

The question was not whether I was deserving of my desires. The real question was and always has been: Do I really want what I thought I wanted?

I was deserving and always will be – we all are. What enables us to create is our desire and not our value (since we are all equally valuable and worthy to begin with).

We’re able to manifest some desires but not others, not mainly because they’re not “meant” for us, but because we don’t want them enough – we don’t want them in the same way, with the same intensity and passion needed to give birth to something that matters.

That space in between – between the conception of my desires and their fruition – gave me all the time I needed to evaluate whether I really wanted what I said I wanted.

More importantly, I didn’t find the answers by putting everything on hold and reflecting in isolation. I worked my way – I lived my way through them. I’ve expressed my “Yes-es” through my countless decisions to proceed.

Most of the time if we’re not “given” what we thought we wanted we think that it’s only either because it’s not meant for us or it’s not the right time yet. We fail to look at and/or underestimate our own contribution in the manifestation of our desires. When it feels as though our desires are put “on hold” it’s not always because of those two things above, more often that not, it’s simply life’s way of asking us, “Do you really want it?” And again, life expects us to answer not through our words but through our committed actions.

If there are things sitting on your list, unrealized and merely sucking up your energetic space – take the time to have an honest conversation with yourself. Dare to ask the question that matters the most, “Do you really want it/them?”. Take inspired actions from there.

Manifestation · The Self

Focus on the “Solid” Stuff

bouquetDon’t allow yourself to be distracted by numbers, titles and a plethora of accessories we invent every second. Don’t be preoccupied with taking notes of how much you’re able to get and how much more you want to/you should be getting.

Take the chances that are being given to you, the strengths you’re blessed with, the love and the support that you are provided with. Take it all in – and multiply it to X amount.

Why?

To show the kind of person that you are.

To reaffirm how good life is. To prove that this is a Universe of Abundance.

That we are only limited by how much abundance we allow into our lives.

We are the Channels of Abundance.

By abundance I don’t simply refer to money and material wealth, power and all the shiny things, but THE REAL EXCITING STUFF – ideas, awareness, skills, desire, passion, vision, purpose, experience, depth, uplifting connections, the ability to create synchronicity, among others.

When you have those things in your life, when you know their value, when you are harnessing their power to nourish yourself and the people around you, you just tapped your direct connection with the source of all abundance. Abundance can’t help but flow into your life in a whole lot of ways.

Pay attention to the real things, the solid stuff!

Because the “solid” stuff are not solid.