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My conversation with Jesus – Part 1 (The Cross, Life on Earth and Religions)

Without planning it, I found myself sitting inside a Catholic Church at 5 pm yesterday. There were only about five of us inside. The space was the typical Church – it was huge – like it could fit 200-300 people, the ceiling was high, the doors were all open and birds flew around. I sat just face-to-face with the altar – the crucifixion in the center.

I just focused on Jesus in the cross. Intuitively – I asked him my nagging question:

Me: Why are you there? Why are you hanging in that cross? Why did you decide to let that happen?

Jesus: It’s true. I could have not let this happen to me. I could have argued against it, I could have revolted against it or I could simply have run away. But I didn’t. I let the events unfold. I let it happen. Why? Because logic was not what was called for at that time. I knew the only way I could’ve made a mark was by getting crucified without a struggle. If I simply relied on logic and my words I would’ve been able to make my point.

Me: And what was your point?

Jesus: Look, each human goes through similar events. Of course not everyone can (and should) go through exactly what I’ve been through – be crucified or be held on the spotlight (for better or worse – like the famous leaders before and after me). But the mere instance of incarnating into Earth in a physical form – that’s already a crucifixion in itself.

Each of you has been crucified in a way to your physical form and your physical environment – with all your needs, weaknesses and impulses. You’re crucified to time and space – you cannot be everywhere at the same time, you get born and you have to die.

My carrying of my cross and being crucified on it afterwards is just a blatant depiction of what each human goes through – you carry your physical existence like a cross because of course, everybody knows in the Universe that it’s not easy to live on Earth. It’s heavy – even heavier and bigger than you, and walking with it is needless to say, a life and death struggle. Likewise, you’re the only one who can carry it. Some may carry it for you for a time – but this defeats the purpose so you’ll eventually have to carry it again yourself – for the rest of your journey. Others will walk with you and comfort you – and this will help you make it through.

Your cross – your physical existence – is your cross and also your salvation. After all has been done, you’ll resurrect and ascend again and be a part of Spirit/Source which you all came from…then eventually when you’re ready, you’ll plan your next reincarnation.

What exactly is the highlight of my story – and what Christianity likes to highlight as well? My Resurrection. My Ascension. The fact that I rose from the dead and lived forever. Human history never forgets this truth – that life on Earth is temporary. This truth may have been twisted and used in many disempowering ways by some but if you dig into it – you’ll still see its purity. This truth has been preserved because it has helped humanity in making through physical existence.

Forget about being crucified for humanity’s sins – nobody can save anybody else but herself/himself and her/his personal connection to Source. I didn’t save – nor intend to save – anybody else but myself. Going through the way of your life’s cross and your own crucifixion was what I wanted to show, ’cause I knew that’s the path to resurrection, ascension and further expansion.

Each religion creates its own version of a story because it has its own intentions and political agenda. It doesn’t mean religions are useless or just plain destructive – it just means that they are a reflection of the current times. They have to evolve, too. People turn away from religions once they no longer resonate with their expansion. Therefore as humanity evolves and reaches a higher vibration, religions have to evolve, too.

If there are things that turn you off in your religion – then simply don’t accept them. Just like in any situation, use your own discernment and ability to think critically. Source has equipped you with your own mind and freewill – use them. Don’t turn your back against religion altogether simply because you don’t agree with some things about it – you might miss many important lessons it can offer you.

(to be continued…)

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What you seek is seeking you.

What you seek is seeking you. – Rumi

I’ve been haunted by this quote this past few days (or has it been weeks? my whole life?). I know it’s related to 11:11 which I kept on seeing lately as well.

This quote reminded me of a meditation I did a few months ago. Archangel Michael told me that my life purpose is whatever it is that’s in my heart. It can both mean that:

a. I will find the answer to the great life purpose question inside my own heart. I must listen to it. I must reflect on it. I must actively engage it.

b. My life purpose is whatever it is that I love. And it can, in fact, change.

It’s not entirely different from what I understand from Rumi’s quote above. The simple act of living enables us to manifest feelings and thoughts (pleasure, pain, fear, ideas, inventions, beliefs etc.) that with the power of our focus turns to life on their own. Because the energy we put into them, they acquire their own momentum as well.

There comes a point in time where we cross the line. The path we have created ends up pulling us into it instead. We no longer have to struggle. We no longer have to find it. The path unfolds in front of us as clear as day. But it’s never done. It’s always open-ended. The rule is to simply follow it’s unfolding and then create and direct it’s becoming.

It’s us who create our own destiny. We just have to learn how to trust ourselves. We have to learn how to trust our own desires and where they’re leading us into. It’s so beautiful and exciting, isn’t it? ūüôā

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The world wide web as the spiritual

We manifest heaven/the ethereal/the infinite in our planet in many ways. I couldn’t help but notice that the world wide web operates in the same way (eerily similar) as the spiritual world.

Invisibility – The world wide web is invisible to our human eyes. Maybe if we have additional senses we’re gonna be able to see it, smell it, touch it or just experience it in other ways.

Most of us can’t see the `spiritual world` but we know it’s there. If we train our ‘extrasensory perception’ we can observe it better. It’s just about knowing how to tune into it.

Omnipresence – It’s another fabric of our reality. We don’t use it as just another way to communicate or create. The internet creates us as well. It shapes our culture. It shapes our perception. It influences our actions.

The spiritual world is not in another place at another time, far away from us. It’s actually here where we are. It’s in all the places we go to, including those we haven’t discovered yet. It’s in everything we do. It’s in everything we perceive. It’s in everything we are.¬†

Infinity – In relation to those two above, ¬†the world wide web is as infinite and mysterious as our own mind. It’s as unfathomable as the Universe. It’s boundless.

The Universe is another manifestation of the non-physical world. As we have learned through science, the Universe is not just limitless, it’s actually expanding faster than ever.

Cloud Storage – You can store your data in what is called a ‘cloud’ which is not limited to just one physical structure and location. You can access it as long as you are able to connect to it using the right medium. You can either increase or decrease your storage capacity based on your preference and need. Upload, download and share anything at your own convenience.

It’s in the non-physical world where we store or upload all our ideas, our desires, even our fears before they get manifested in the three dimensional reality of our planet. It’s through our expectation, focus and will that we are able to ‘download’ them to earth as physical manifestations. It’s where our dreams come from, it’s where our inspiration comes from, it’s where our wishes come from. It’s also where our higher self is.

Google Suggestions/Autocomplete РSuggestions are  for the most part based on your browsing history. To make it simple, you get more of what you ask for. Like attracts like in the world wide web.

This is simply the Law of Attraction manifested in another form.

Instant Communication – Distance and time don’t matter online. As long as you have a stable connection and the right gadget, you can communicate with someone in real time anywhere on Earth. You can even choose which app or website you prefer to use.

Time doesn’t exist in the non-physical world. It’s something we created in our reality. But we are somehow able to transcend it now using the internet.

Communication in Multiple Platforms – When you send a message on Facebook using your phone and your account is also open on your laptop, you instantly see your message popping out on the latter. You can keep the communication going on even if you switch gadgets.

What we put into our material plane is instantly uploaded into the non-physical plane and vice-versa. Our intention makes it possible. We make things Рanything Рpossible. 

Manifestation Playground– What we can create, upload, download, watch, read, play, experience online is endless and highly varied. It’s a playground to manifest our desires and fears and pretty much anything we are curious about.

We don’t just use the non-physical world to manifest – it’s where we create, change and develop the rules and processes of manifestation¬†itself. Apps and technologies, like universal laws, get outdated, too.¬†

Objectivity – We can use the internet for whatever purpose that we may have. It’s gonna give us what we ask for. It’s not biased.

Only experience can tell us if we’re using what we know of the spiritual world in the name of goodness or evil, love or fear. It’s a tool for us spiritual beings. We can either use to expand or stagnate. But since our Universe operates in the law of cause and effect, we reap what we sow.


We can observe the world wide web to understand more of the non-physical world and it’s connection to our material, three dimensional world. Maybe I could list down some more in the coming months.¬†This makes me pretty excited about the developments that are happening so fast we couldn’t even pause and reflect enough on them.


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My take on Evil

Evil, fear exist so that we can consciously choose goodness and love. The Universe doesn’t fool with us. If we’re not given our free will, then this life would be just one stupid lie.

Apart from that, it’s in the interest of the Universe – which means, all of us – to expand. There is no expansion in putting up limits to what we can only allow to be and grow.

The challenge for humanity is to collectively choose love and goodness over fear and evil. The majority has to actively choose the former over and over again until we change our consciousness and reality…until we no longer need fear and evil to know what love, what freedom, what goodness really mean.

We are heading in the direction where we no longer need contrast to manifest what we want. From a place of pure completeness, we can eventually orchestrate our desires into fruition.

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To the son I left in my previous life

I’ve finally awaken. I remember you. I remember who I was.

I didn’t expect that the past life meditation with Brian Weiss would be that powerful. It was so simple and so brief but I learned so much about myself.

At first, I was not sure who you were or who I was. But before I even asked you in my mind who you were, I already knew the answer. Oh, and did you remember how hard I cried? I could not forget your face and your eyes asking me “Where are you going, mother?”

There was no remorse or pain coming from you. All I felt from you were confusion, shock and sadness. I don’t¬†know what has become of us during that lifetime. But I am very sure that you’ve grown up to be a very well adjusted nice and wise man. I am not sure what happened to me.¬†Most probably I was not able to fulfill my goal and come back to you as I promised.

I chose to live again in this lifetime to continue fulfilling my goals before I come back to you. An angel told me that time is not against me. He told me that I can have all the time that I need to fulfill my goals and that if time comes that I am ready to come back to you, I should always keep in mind that I can come back anytime and that you’ll be waiting for me.

That experience explains why I’ve been drawn to younger men since I was young myself (people would question me how I could possibly become a “cougar” at my teens). I’ve always longed for that “boyish vibe” – full of wonder, energy and adventure. Now I know why. It’s because I have an 11 year old son which I had to leave in order to find myself.

That experience has given me so much affirmation that I am on the right path. Pursuing freedom in this lifetime is really my mission as a soul.

Thank you, my son, for your silent support. I know you’d never been angry at me for leaving you. I know you’d always believe that I’d come back to you. I know you’d always believed in my reasons for leaving.

It doesn’t matter if it had to take us a few hundred years to reunite. ¬†I will diligently work on my goals and come back for you. I will do it in this lifetime.

To all my angels, spirit guides and The Creator, thank you very much for all your love, patience and guidance. How can I have doubts and fears when you are all walking with me wherever I choose to go?

Please receive all the love and gratitude from my joyful and hopeful heart.

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To the Vietnamese people, the face of conviction and resiliency


Dreams do come true. I know because things fell into place and I suddenly found myself in your land, walking among you. I had the chance to be welcomed into your warm home, to be listened to, to be explained by, to be shown an example on how to summon the highest self to rise above such great loss and heartache.

Ho Chi Minh City was a beautiful, fresh place. It’s peaceful, clean and friendly. I neither felt out of place nor scared.


I’ve always had a high regard for you. Your fight against the French colonialists and the imperialist Americans have always been a source of awe for me. You weren’t afraid to lose everything that’s why you came out of each struggle in victory. Until now, you’ve proven the world why you deserved such¬†success over seemingly impossible enemies.

You won the wars. You keep on winning them by being stronger but more tender, by being firm but more understanding, by moving on but never forgetting what is worth remembering.


I had a better understanding of what you’ve been through and who you were as a people when I was able to visit the War Remnants Museum, the Handicapped Handicrafts and the Chu Chi Tunnels. Your spirit was just amazing. How you transformed your limitations into opportunities, tragedy into beauty and strength would leave anybody speechless.

You fought in unity, rose up in unity, coped up with devastation in unity and rebuilt your country in unity. You’ve become indestructible individually and collectively.

People like you reaffirm the truth that it is possible to defeat imperialism, that it is possible to transform oneself and align it with the common good and that it is possible to create a new world order. You reaffirmed my belief that there are wars worth dying for because it’s the only way to have a chance for¬†a better life and a new beginning.

The revolutionary history of my people has always made me proud. Then there was you. You’re a source of more profound and lasting inspiration.

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Your ingenuity, conviction and unimaginable inner strength became your most valuable weapons.

No enemy would be powerful enough to knock you down. My people has a lot to learn from you in continuing and winning our struggle. Your struggle and victory is ours and all the oppressed people of the world. Embrace us with your revolutionary spirit.


On a more personal note, you made me realize that there’s nothing to fear and nothing to lose when you’re on the side of reason. Peace and prosperity will come to those who have the guts to fight for what is right and just. It’s how we grow up and become deserving of the life and the many chances we are given.