Bring out The Bull in you

Creative Living, Manifestation, Meditation/Visions, The Self

ericzenerI’m blessed to be visited by animal spirit guides in my meditations, in my dreams, in my visions. Today’s meditation led me to my zodiac sign – Taurus, the Bull.

The image of a bull looking straight at me was sharp, very much in contrast with the image behind her – a herd of bull raging, with dust clouding the atmosphere.

I would usually get telepathic messages from these animal spirits, but she never spoke a word to me. Her mere presence was her message.

The messages, as I interpreted it in words were:

  • There’s no conflict between the two – you can have a strong individual character and be part of a team. In fact, the strongest teams are actually composed of only those with strong individualities. You have to know who you are first before you can be a part of something bigger.
  • You can be both gentle and headstrong. You can both be nice and decisive.
  • You don’t need to do anything fancy, you need not possess any remarkable talent. You will reach your goals by actually being so damn predictable, that you become so reliable for others. You will move towards your goals by being consistent and methodical. There is value in sticking with the process –  because you’re only gonna have progress in the process. You’ll only be able to improve how you do things in time.
  • You don’t have to be particularly exceptional with anything. What you need is to choose to be fully present in each moment, to confront each situation and not to avert your eyes. Everything is “figure-out-table” as long as you stay present and focused. Creative ideas will open themselves up to you when you are grounded in the moment. Trust in your environment, trust in yourself – trust that you have the resources to accomplish whatever you set your mind to do.
  • You get stronger the more you try, the more you give your all.
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Give Your Best: Show Up

Authenticity, Creative Living, Faith, Life path, Life's Work, Manifestation, People, People & Relationships, The Self

greenbgWe should give our best not because everything equally matters individually and collectively.

What matters in the face of life, in the face of death – is that we show up fully in each given moment – to who we have become, but more importantly to who we claim ourselves to be.

How to feel more alive? Create.

Creative Living, Manifestation, The Self

handsOur consumerist culture has made us feel like an object, too. We’re just a part of the display. We don’t have our own power. Our unique ideas and preferences don’t have value. There is no other way. Everything’s been done. We are not in charge.

This learned perspective bleeds into all aspects of our lives. It makes us feel powerless over our work, our relationships, our finances, world events – even over our own past, our own thoughts, emotions and habits.

An antidote to everyday helplessness has always been this: To be creative. To create. To play. To express ourselves. To make something personally meaningful to us. To make something that makes us happy. To just keep doing it. To do it no matter what. This enables us to take our power back.

Everyone is an artist. We are all powerful creators. We just gotta get down and do the work. Make it happen.

The Go-Getter Mindset

Creative Living, Life path, Life's Work, Manifestation, People & Relationships, The Self

lizmayvWhen you believe something is missing or needs to change – opt for the better way; don’t resort to complaining and feeling helpless – get started and do something about it. This may not entirely address the situation, but it’s a way to start the momentum in the direction you want it to go.

If you’re in the right place, with the right people, at the right time, and if your concerns make sense – your efforts will be met with support. If not then maybe it’s not the right time yet or maybe it’s better for you to simply move on.  Your brilliance and sincerity are better spent somewhere else.

No one will hand you want you want. Big girl, you gotta go get it.

 

How to take your power back? Make more time for Play.

Authenticity, Career, Creative Living, The Self

lizmayvYesterday, in the middle of a busy working Monday, a thought bubble popped out – it said,

“How can I feel more in control of my days? How can I feel like my days – including weekdays – are mine again? How can I bring back my regular everyday bliss from when I still had full control of my schedule?”

This morning when I woke up, I got my answer.

It’s to make more time for Play. By play, I mean, it could be anything at all that we simply do because it’s fun and it allows us to be creative. It lets our mind wander and expand. For one person it could be spending time with animals, for another it could be working out in the gym – for me, it’s thinking on a blank sheet – it’s both drawing and writing, although I tend to write more often these days.

Today since I woke up 30 minutes earlier than usual, I started taking my power back. I started writing at 5 am – before I proceed with my usual daily grind.

Ironic because what playing actually offers us is the space to lose control – yet it’s also the very thing that makes us feel more in control of our life.

Perhaps after all this time we are just spiritual kids inside us. We just want to explore, create and have some a lot of fun!

Even before I started writing this piece, just the thought of writing already lifted my spirits up.

I started feeling more hopeful about my day, knowing that it’s not just another day to spend living for other people’s dreams and fulfillment.

In fact, it’s mine – I create it – just like all the days past and all the days to come. Everything else in my life is just there to support me in living life the way I want to – including my day job (and not the other way around).

A Leap in Perspective

Authenticity, Career, Creative Living, Healing, Life path, Life's Work, People & Relationships, The Self

needleplantI used to think that the only way I could fully live a spiritual life and be in an ecosystem of inspiring one another was by somehow working in the healing/intuitive arts. Lately though, probably as part of my spiritual progression, I’ve learned that –

1. If that is true, then that is very limiting. Not everyone is in or even comes close to the vicinity of healing/intuitive arts. How can we reach those/everybody if we just stay there? I don’t think the Universe is designed to be that way. If anything, we should spread out, expand ourselves, immerse ourselves in unfamiliar situations, engage with people who are different from us in some ways. In the process, learn, grow, be more integrated.

2. We are, by default, living spiritual lives because we are spiritual/energetic beings having a physical experience. We CANNOT NOT be spiritual.

3. Where else is best to live this so called full spiritual life other than where we already are doing what we already do?

Now I think that the goal is actually not to be a healer/a guide/a mentor/or just a spiritual person by profession or by being validated by a particular organization or institution, but to be all these things and so much more simply by choosing to embrace our truest self, our essence – which is love and light – and to show up in the world everyday embodying these where we are and with whoever we interact with.

We have all been touched by “common” people in profound ways;

be it a hairstylist who has shown us great love and compassion when we’re heartbroken, a stranger in the bus who radiated joy and kindness when we felt hopeless towards life, a family member who offered us advice we needed at that time, a colleague who we never thought of as a friend but who suddenly got our back during one of our personal storms, a deceased artist whose works have inspired us to take risks and go for our dreams.

To others, we have played these roles, too, without us knowing about it. We’ll never fully know the mark we leave on each other.

We gotta check in with ourselves. If our inquiry and path naturally leads us to the healing/intuitive arts then great and that will surely benefit all of us. If not, we must have the faith that probably where we are right now is where we can best grow and be of service to others.

Already Living the Dream

Authenticity, Creative Living, Life path, Manifestation, The Self

lizmayvThere was a recent period in my life where I found myself devouring non-fiction books about creativity, authenticity and having clarity about one’s life path. Since I’m the kind of person who is passionate about matters like life purpose and co-creating one’s reality, I doggedly pursued the answers to such questions to the point that I was merely being cerebral about them. That hurt my brain and caused a tightness in my chest.

In one splitting second, though, in the middle of yet another book which was supposed to hand me some clarity, I felt the bigger version of me, who’s all-seeing and being, left a casual remark,

“But you’re already living your dream life.”

I was sitting in a corner of my favorite bookstore at that time. Nothing has changed about the place nor the people there. But that message has made me zoom out of my limited point of view. I looked around to see others who were also peacefully or intensely engaged with the books on their laps. Then I realized, that yes, I’ve already been living my dream life.

I longed for the freedom to be introspective and creative, and I got it.

My obsessive search for clarity died down. There was no need to run along my hamster wheel anymore, in search for answers that were always beyond my reach. The answers I’ve been looking for could be found not in my seeking but in my ability to be fully present in each moment, having faith that where I am is where I need to be.

Put Yourself Out There

Art, Authenticity, Creative Living, Life's Work, The Self

do it

diveA few years ago, as I was preparing to join my first art market, I remember having a discussion with myself regarding my anxiety on putting my work out there.

I felt soooo self-conscious. I kept questioning the quality of my work, my skills, and whether I deserved to have a spot in the open at all, together with a bunch of other creatives.

I’ve never had a problem creating art and being spontaneous with it. If anything, it’s where I felt the most free. It’s my happy place. On the flip side, sharing my work was something else.

So there I was, walking back and forth, with clammy hands I prepared for my big day. I organized my items and all the publicity materials that I’d be bringing with me the next day, the day of the art market.

I WAS DREADFUL.

I was still unsure if I was gonna join even up to the point where I was done prepping. In the corner of my mind I thought I could still back out, yes, despite weeks of painting for hours and spending all my savings on my hand painted bags.

A voice broke my rumination; I heard her screaming in my mind’s ear:

“Simply go the fucking do it. Put your fucking work out there.”

“You will know what’s gonna happen once you’ve done it. For now, stop ruminating about it.”

So I did. I went to the art market. I put my work out there. And I was able to sell them (I didn’t even believe people would actually pay for them but they did!). I also met many friendly and interested people. I caught some people smiling at my bags. People took photos. The world didn’t break apart and swallowed me whole. No one humiliated me.

Since then I conquered my fear of sharing my work with the world. I kept joining art markets. It didn’t always go well (monetarily, speaking) and many times I felt as though I was wasting my time. But something delicious and unexpected came of out it – the confidence to put not only my work, but also myself out there (’cause when you’re sharing something you’ve created, you’re inevitably sharing yourself, too, especially if you’re also the one marketing and selling them).

This confidence is no longer limited to my hand painted bags but to all forms of self-expression; be it my writing, dancing in public, putting on make-up and dressing myself up the way I want to, making jokes, among others.

That voice might have sounded harsh to me at that time, but she was right for pushing me to just go for it. Now to you my self-conscious friend I say, stop ruminating and go the fucking put yourself out there! Do it for yourself! There’s a space for each of us in this world. Own yours and use it. 😉

You are not lost. We are not lost.

Creative Living, Faith, Life path, Life's Work, Manifestation, The Self

lureYou may be confused at the moment. You may be in a foggy part of your path. You may be feeling lonely, probably you’re running out of faith in your tank, too. While I won’t pretend to know how exactly you must be feeling and what exactly you’re going through, ’cause I acknowledge the realness that each of our journey is unique, I want to extend my empathy and  best wishes to you as a kindred spirit.

Many people have accused me of not knowing what I really wanted with regards to my career and life path. Many people have withheld trust from me because of this perception. Many people belittled me. It went on for so long to the point that I started believing them.

But in the middle of my recent retreat, when the fog started to dissipate and I could have some clarity again, a knowing just sprouted out, like a tiny mouse that has been hiding simply to protect herself from the momentary chaos around her. I knew then with full certainty that it was not true that I didn’t know what I wanted. It was not true that I was intrinsically confused. And in fact, it was not true that those people who have accused me of not knowing what I wanted really believed in that –

They knew very well that I knew what I wanted but that it was simply not what I was pursuing.

Of course, they didn’t have any idea what it was that I wanted, but they’re pretty sure that it was not what they were offering me. They didn’t know why I was not pursuing what I wanted but surely, they’ve got all the reasons to not wanna work with me. My mind was somewhere else. That’s why they rejected me.

My issue was not the not-knowing but the suppressing of my own desires in the first place because I thought they’re too big, too impossible, too far for me to reach. So I put my focus on other things, I reached for the low-hanging fruits instead.

I was playing small. I didn’t even dare speak nor write about my desires. I simply let them float like clouds above my head as I walk through life half-awake.

There was no blueprint that I could use, no map to lead my way, no one I personally knew I could ask for guidance – these were the reasons why I refused to pursue my own path, refused to even own it to begin with.

You might be on the same boat and these might be some of your reasons, too. Yes, we may have forgotten what it was we were truthfully passionate about after pursuing something we have merely settled for, but I dare you to look inside yourself and realize that you know you are not confused. In fact, you very well know what’s gonna make you happy and what’s gonna enable you to live your life to the fullest. Maybe the answers are not what you expect from yourself, maybe they’re not what the people around you expect from you.

But this is the truth we all have to confront – that we won’t ever be able to pivot in the right direction if we don’t own these answers. We can’t move through the path of joy and fulfillment if we judge our own desires to begin with, if we feel unworthy of them, if we think they’re ridiculous or impossible.

We have to stop looking outside of ourselves for validation. We need to avoid comparing our dreams with those around us, or even with the people we look up to.

Each of us has a unique path of becoming. It is both our right and responsibility to claim it – to take it.

The path will unfold and our steps will be lighted once we say yes to it. All the other possible paths collapse through the power of our focus. It will be a path of uncertainty, exactly because it’s a new path – it’s ours alone. There will be ups and downs and bumps along the way like any trail of adventure, but each stone, each broken branch, each puddle of mud will only take us closer to where we wanna be. Even though we’re not there yet and it may take a while we can always rest in the knowing that we are not lost and our efforts are worthwhile.